Ramblings

Had some driving time this weekend. Went to my nephew's wedding and from there to another city to sing on Sunday. I started thinking about all the people in the world and how many brains that is and how many thoughts go through each person's brain and if that could somehow that could be turned into energy that would be amazing.
As I left work today for some reason, for the first time, I had the realization of what a small minuscule particle I am in the whole scheme of things.
I started having pain in my lower back today at lunch time. I usually attribute that to possibly kidney infection, which I don't normally have. It is getting worse tonight. My biggest fear, since TLC has aired it, is the I didn't know I was pregnant syndrome! At 52, this would not be good, I know that even a tubal ligation isn't 100% effective. I'll let you know by morning how that pain resolves itself.
Off to bed, trying to get enough sleep each night so I feel good all day. I'm hoping it works that way.

Just finished a little "catnap" here. Hopefully refreshing. It was good I decided to stay home this labor day weekend as daughter sprained here ankle at VB tournament and hubby's back very bad for the day. So spent the evening waiting on them both, getting their dinner, many trips up and downstairs. Daughter was thrilled though as they won the tournament, a first for them! Fortunately they both are more mobile today. I made some returns to a department store and then went to big discount store and got some groceries. You do really save money there, I need to make the effort to go there more often.

Right now I think I will attempt to install my blackberry software to my laptop so I can upload some photos. Some of those include the championship trophy. Hope to get some info on the middle-aged manie website as well. More later.

Busy week, busy times. Youngest, 15, went back to school this week and playing sports. I spent last weekend singing the entire weekend was fun, but enough by the end. Can't believe it's September 5th already! Labor day weekend, my favorite activity during this time is watching the US Open. Just made the dogs scrambled eggs and rice, since we are out of dog food, will need to get that and TP by the end of the day. Hope to get some yard/house work done today. Really have to think a little more seriously maybe about selling this house. Spouse upstairs with his back giving him holy heck and my knee not being so great, the stairs are so much work sometimes!

New washing machine coming on Tuesday. I imagine the dryer going out will not be far behind, and then the dishwasher not long after that. (the tennis matches are great this AM).

It is going to be a beautiful weekend here in Minnesota this weekend. More later, time to go watch some more volleyball, tournament today for the youngest.

Root River Daisy

After a long busy day yesterday, had a great night's sleep and getting ready to head back for another one as soon as I get some clothes in the dryer.

One of my goal's in this middle-aged mania is to find the best way to have a good sense of well being most of the time naturally. Have just begun my give up the anti-depressants, about 3 weeks now I think. Starting to get over the tired and some other "withdrawal" type of feelings. Not like give up addictive drugs, but still a process I think. It will be interesting to see what the negative side effects were that I may have had without really being aware. I plan to put a heavy emphasis on increasing the exercise to make up the difference.

Found some interesting links along that path:
http://biopsychiatry.com/index.html

Haven't had a chance to read throught it all yet.

I have to remember that I am only in control of myself, I can express myself, thoughts, feeleings, emotions clearly to others. Seems like it should be easy but not always.

Time to finish up so I don't begin rambling. I have decided to add pictures that I have been taking and starting a collection.

Have I posted yet?

Seems like I have done a lot of typing but I guess I haven't created a post yet, so here we go.... yeah! I am a woman with a lot on my mind seems like at 52 things are coming at me. Oldest in college, middle Sr. in high school, youngest 10th grade.
Yes, I did have children later in life, 31, 35 and 37 but that worked out OK for me. I have classmates that are grandparents and on occasion was referred to as our children's "grandma" attributed, I believe to bad hair days and complete lack of make-up and pretty raggy clothes. The lifestyle of having young children and no energy. I now strongly aspire to becoming a victim of "What Not to Wear", however, my children are not old enough to turn me in. The 2 at home anyway.

The purpose of this blog is just "random" thoughts, feelings, questions etc., attempting to gain some awareness of other middle-aged women's thought processes.

I may have accomplished enough at this point that I could possibly go to sleep.

During my spell check I looked at the Synonyms for mania:

desire
obsession
love
craze
thing
passion
fashion
enthusiasm
fad

I really like all those words, who knew mania could mean so much?

Hope you all have a great day